Begs a question why I’ve been stumbling upon so many things concerned(and mainly negatively) with race, in the book I just finished reading, hunger games. There was a twitter racism scandal, also when I googled Doutzen Kroes and her husband I found myself on this German forum were they were bashing Doutzen for marry an “aids-Monkey”, apparantly she is a whore and she’s not proud to be German because she’s married to black(handsome) DJ. If only they knew how German girls flock to South African shores to Topdeck on the long streets of Cape town.

This is a screenshot I took of a friend on facebook, we went to the same high school. He is “coloured”, coloured globally would mean you are mixed. in SA however you don’t need to be mixed to be coloured, you get black coloureds, coloureds that are coloureds because both parents are coloureds and “actual” coloureds.

Anyway when I read this I cringed at not only what was written but because I had also previously had an urge induced by anger at that time to post something exactly the same. My reaction was disgust at myself projected onto him cause I hated the fact that I also wanted to do this.

My hate though(like his) doesn’t make sense, actually any type of racism does not make sense. How can i be attracted to white boys and still hate basically his skin colour?(Cause that’s what it all comes down to), possible answers could be I have feelings of inferiority and I feel I can only be validated through dating white boys, or it could be that past and continual experiences and observations of racism ignite this hate I have. Whatever it is, its sad.

How did it get to reducing a whole race of people to stereotypes and concluding whatever negative conclusion you have to that race u harbour feelings of hate and disgust at? Even better how can we change this? We know some basic roots to this are being unfamiliar with a certain races and other reasons are family’s we grow up in. You and I both know he(Ricky) and I and so many others have learned this racism. So how to change?